just an alice in a wonderland.

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Thursday, i went to a religious institute class.  I don't like to view myself as churchy. at all. I mention Jesus a lot. but, not because i've been told my whole life , "don't be ashamed of Christ!" or "let your light shine!"  whate'er. it's too corny for my cynical and sarcastic duet. but, I do believe in Jesus. and I love Him. that's all.  but, I'm not a church-goer kind of person. the way i feel close to Heaven can not be achieved in an establishment. and that is hard for people to accept around where i live. i'm the "heathen". and i'm alright with that. but, with that said, I do like to see what other people believe and see in the religious aspect of life. 

so, i went to a class, and it was better than i thought it would be, but, i felt a bit of tension with a few controversial things said. sometimes religious discussions and 'doctrines' become completely out of proportion and sound absolutely nutty. it used to drive me crazy, but i've discovered a beauty in listening, gracefully, to peoples' perspectives and beliefs, even if i disagree and even if i find it utterly offensive. the word 'patience' rings in so much meaning now. i ask a lot of questions now. i'm not the same girl i used to be. and many people in my life don't like that. it hurts. it's hard to share my views with the majority of people in my life. it's lonely, even. 

strange world i live in.


KATHRYN.

got Christmas?

i'm human, my life isn't perfect, not every day is good. today was not a good day. and it's okay. but being unhappy is always hard to cope with. at least for me. i like to be happy. days like these, i can always find something that lightens things up and lifts my spirit. today, i didn't even try. however, i found myself drawn by a certain thing. something warm, merry, joyful, and something that made me happy. Christmas. alright now, don't laugh. i know i'm a dork, and i know it's February. i didn't even try to go this direction. it just happened. I went to grooveshark and played Andrea Bocelli, and played all his songs in order. Guess what songs were first? Christmas. Of course I started to sing along, loud and proud, unaware that I was singing to holiday music. (Christmas is in my blood, okay?) About half way through, "White Christmas" I realized for the past 30 minutes i had been listening to Christmas music. Did I stop? No. At this moment I'm listening to Andrea sing a quite romantic version of "Santa Claus Is Comin' To Town". Oh, that man is dreamy. 

Browsing through some fashion blogs, I found these: (note: all Christmas colors. completely unintentional).

  images via here and there. (i can't remember).

i found dozens of beautiful dresses and pretty pictures, but these were what stuck out to me. The green dress reminds me of a Christmas tree, and the red picture reminds me of winter berries. 

another Christmas encounter...

my little sister came over with an assortment of balloons and asked me what color i wanted. there was a pink one and i would usually take that one. but, i took the dark green. i was delighted. looking up and smiling at my dark green balloon just makes me giddy inside.

And what's the point of me showing you these and telling you of my undying love for all things Christmas? 

simply, after my 'Christmas in February' experience, i started to smile, speak gently and kindly, in amidst of the hurt and hard time had today, and i can breath. today is no longer a bad day. i'm happy.
  

who needs drugs and pills? I got Christmas!

be bold! be daring! join me. 

Enjoy Christmas. everyday. all year long.

no. i'm not a freak for celebrating Christmas all year.

and don't you think the Man who started it all would want that, too?

Thank you, Christmas. (and Andrea Bocelli).

PS: i'm craving peppermint candy canes and hot chocolate, (in a Christmas mug, of course).

hello, February.

fact: I really, really, really, really, miss fetchmeadarlingsummer. You may not. In fact, it's possible I've lost my readers, but it doesn't matter because it's something I enjoy and that's all that matters.

January is an awful month for me. I don't know why. It always is. And it was. That's why I left for a bit. I'm extremely emotional and I could have posted something awful about my January 2012. (it was truly a disaster). It's over now.

hello, February.

and welcome back to my humble abode. 

let the writing begin. (or continue).

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Kathryn.

ta ta for now.

me and fetchmeadarlingsummer need a tiny break. this world is spinning too fast, my mind can't keep up. 

ta ta for now.

be soft.

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