just an alice in a wonderland.

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Thursday, i went to a religious institute class.  I don't like to view myself as churchy. at all. I mention Jesus a lot. but, not because i've been told my whole life , "don't be ashamed of Christ!" or "let your light shine!"  whate'er. it's too corny for my cynical and sarcastic duet. but, I do believe in Jesus. and I love Him. that's all.  but, I'm not a church-goer kind of person. the way i feel close to Heaven can not be achieved in an establishment. and that is hard for people to accept around where i live. i'm the "heathen". and i'm alright with that. but, with that said, I do like to see what other people believe and see in the religious aspect of life. 

so, i went to a class, and it was better than i thought it would be, but, i felt a bit of tension with a few controversial things said. sometimes religious discussions and 'doctrines' become completely out of proportion and sound absolutely nutty. it used to drive me crazy, but i've discovered a beauty in listening, gracefully, to peoples' perspectives and beliefs, even if i disagree and even if i find it utterly offensive. the word 'patience' rings in so much meaning now. i ask a lot of questions now. i'm not the same girl i used to be. and many people in my life don't like that. it hurts. it's hard to share my views with the majority of people in my life. it's lonely, even. 

strange world i live in.


KATHRYN.